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Post by brete on Jan 4, 2011 20:21:22 GMT -6
 I'm not going to put dates on this, I feel that timing myself would sort of defeat the purpose of randomly writing down my thoughts and feelings. Mother told me I should keep this journal as a way to help stave off the loneliness of being in a new place with no one you know or love around you. I have to say though, for the first week of being in a new place surrounded by strangers...it's not really all that bad. People here are friendly, if a bit more straight forward than I would have expected; they split all chores from the highest rank to the lowest. It's a well functioning place and I am really starting to think I could make a home here. I've always wanted to someday harper to a place like this anyways so why not be a dragonrider and help lead our planet through thread? There is nothing more amazing than the bond between dragon and rider and there is nothing braver than fighting the enemy of Pern? I don't know I just feel I need to make the best of the situation if I'm to live happily. I want to fit well here and make friends, and maybe, someday; fall in love. Making a home of my own is my new ambition....well that and to have a lovely little dragon all my own. One thing of particular interest has happened though. I have recently befriended, or at least I think I have befriended a girl named Filonna, she is a bit younger than me but we are both candidates and we seem to get along well. I truly think that no matter how we impress I'd still feel she was a rather lovely person. P.S. Violet is as cute and purple as ever, and I think she may have taken a liking to a pretty little male gemtail recently, will keep you posted. |
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Post by brete on Jan 17, 2011 10:27:28 GMT -6
So we have started the egg touching. I never imagined I'd be so drawn to them. I felt like my life belonged to those little eggs and their beautiful contents. I'm still very nervous that I will not impress but at the same time I'm nervous I will. What if I'm not a good rider? What if I some how get my bonded hurt or worse? What would I do if I impress Gold or Gray? It would be too good to believe to think I had impressed so high to something so wonderfully beautiful. I would just blank out I think. I always thought I'd be fine as long as I impressed but now I'm starting to feel I really want to impress how. I want that responsibility, knowing I'm doing something to help increase the weyr for thread, and the beauty of a dragon like them would be far more than I truly deserve. I know it is above my station but Oh how I would love them and do my best for the weyr. I'm a quick learner and I know how to lead. OH well it is in the fate of the eggshell as my mother said..but hey a girl can dream can't she?
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Post by brete on Jan 18, 2011 10:53:41 GMT -6
Okay I had to write this down for the pure fact that it's getting so uncomfortable. People here are starting to get very aggressive now that the hatching is so close to happening. I saw two guys fighting the other day over things I don't think anyone would normally fight over. It's crazy, I mean why would you allow the anticipation turn to something so ugly. I always thought this would be the most exciting wait of my life but it's quickly turning into the most awkward and frightening. I do not want to argue with people or fight. I'm more of a stand back and wait kind of girl not an in your face person. Don't get me wrong I'll take charge when I need to but don't expect me to just jump in all aggressive like and save the day. We are all old enough to no better than to behave this way. It's times like these that I wish I had my mother here. That being said my mother has sent me my guitar and drums set to play with while I wait. I am thinking of finding other people who know how to play and seeing if they'd like to get a group together once in a while. I miss singing and music in general. I hope this hatching happens soon so I have something to take my mind away from the drama and restless boredom.
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Post by brete on Jan 22, 2011 13:56:42 GMT -6
The weyr begins to impress me more and more, it's like a well shaped drum. It has a nice tone and tautness to it. I feel like the whole place is holding it's breath these days though. I'm told the hatching could happen any second now and I'll admit I'm one of the many holding their breath. What will it be like if I impress? Will my mother be here to see me? I really hope she makes it, she has been saying she was coming to visit any day now so maybe she will. In fact, I have a sinking suspicion she might be arriving today. It would be an amazing comfort to have her here, she is my best friend after all. The stress of waiting is heavy and a little mom distraction would be a welcome thing for sure. Not to mention I'd love for the few friends I have made here to see her. She is a lead singer in many performances and it would be such an honor for me to have her sing in front of the Weyrwoman! Can you imagine my beautiful little mother up there wowing them with her lovely voice. I always wished I had just a tiny bit more range so that I could be of her level, but sadly I can only reach second soprano from my contralto range. Mother's voice can span all ranges she is amazing! Though my pride makes me admit that my lower ranges are stronger and truer where her higher are clearer and brighter. We are like the opposite ends of the well, without one there would be no other. Mother I miss you dearly.
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